Wow! Have you ever done something and wondered why you were so particular about that “thing”?
Our mission statement: Inspiring to step out on faith conquering strife while stepping toward balancing a new walk of life!
Some may not know how hard it really is living with multiple sclerosis. The mission was created with thought, experience and a desire to help in ways I could not find with my “new diagnosis” of multiple sclerosis. Figuring out how to apply my new struggle with the resources I had or “lack there of”, while raising a young family, juggling a business, fighting a deteriorating body that refused to cooperate! I remember it happened so fast one minute I was running next minute I was on a walker.
As you all know I have struggled this summer with a new diagnosis of general anxiety. Talk about scary. “The not being in control part is hard for me”! As if not being able to feel ‘in total control’ of your body isn’t enough?!
Figuring out how to use the new medication was and still is a challenge. The way I requested my medicine left me with limits. I refused to take anything that was known to have a history of addiction, I just wanted something to help me learn how to cope rather than just fix it. With that said, I was on a little bit of a roller coaster ride.
Primarily I was given two medications to start with, as I transitioned off of one, my body went through a grumpy phase. Both medications together allowed me to experience some of the best sleep I’ve had in seven years, so I was quite happy. After a month, I went through a whole different transitioning learning how to maintain with just the one drug as I noticed my sleep reverting back to only a “hope and a dream”🤣, that played a roll in my already new confused headspace, my family watched me go through yet another scared, angry emotional experience. The thing was the whole time I was never in denial. I did a lot of apologizing, while trying to put this new puzzle together with all these new tiny little pieces that were just dropped in my lap and scattered with all my current disarray! I was losing my grip while trying to hold on. I did not want any new changes. In my mind, my family could not afford any new changes, but we are tough and getting through it. But what does that “really” mean?
I strongly believe you can’t be strong about it and quiet about it at the same time. I knew I had to be brutally honest to the people who take care of me from day to day. Even though I tried to explain to them how I was feeling on the inside I knew I had to keep them involved with every new experience. I didn’t want to be a stranger in my own home, but that’s exactly what it felt like, not because of anyone else but because “I didn’t even know who I was”….
Communication, communication, communication with your loved ones, and caregivers aka Generals is one of the most important steps in the process. Things are now better, as I continue to live the happiest and best I can for ME and the ones I 💕. I have had to rely on faith and stepping toward balancing a new walk of life, a lot lately. Physical balance and life balance is my everyday priority. I really never know what to expect until I get up in the morning.
“Today is always different from yesterday and will always be different from tomorrow” D. Young- MS Advocate
I find peace in knowing that I have to start my day with balance in mind inside and out! Balancing makes me strong, keeps my core strong in more ways than one!
Are you stepping with me? Are you determined to seek a newfound balance in your life? Eliminate whatever keeps you from seeking balance. 🧡 Desmine